Our Boy Brett by Bonnie Swade

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It is another December and this year marks the 14th year since our oldest son Brett took his life. In some respects it seems like yesterday as I can still recall our youngest son’s voice on the phone that he found his brother in our gazebo. We were in Chicago at the time visiting our daughter. I thought, “found him … Read More

I Still Ask Why by Kelley

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I lost my sister to suicide a year ago this November. Like so many other’s experience, her death was a complete shock. Hindsight torments me with my failures in recognizing what was right in front of me. I have profound anguish and grief. I feel responsible. The details of our loved one’s despair leading to suicide are all different, but … Read More

What You Need to Know When You Love Someone who Lost a Partner to Suicide by Brook Sanders

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The person you love isn’t afraid of much because they know what it’s like to stare their greatest fear in the face and survive to tell the story. They’ve received the phone call that their partner has passed away, they’ve picked out the funeral clothes for their husband or wife, they have picked the perfect songs for the burial. They … Read More

The Pain by Gina Churchwell

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Sometimes I just sit. I stare blankly, focusing on nothing. I’m quiet and still. The pain is so oppressive it sits on me and in me and I can do nothing but sit with it. I forget to breathe sometimes, so I manage to think…”inhale, exhale…inhale, exhale”…also “blink, Gina, remember to blink.” My eyes are so damned dry anyway, thanks … Read More

That One Dream by Brandy Lidbeck

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My mom died by suicide 26 years ago and in those 26 years, I have had exactly one dream in which she appeared. One dream. That’s it. I hear people, all the time, mentioning the dreams their loved ones have been in and how comforted they were after seeing them. That has not been my experience. The one dream I … Read More

I Lost My Best Friend by Rebekah Byrd

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My son was my best friend, we could talk about anything. At times I would be angry because he would call me in the middle of the night just to talk or say, “I love you, mom.”  Now, I would give anything for a call just to talk or just to say, “I love you, mom.” It has been almost three years since I … Read More

What would you say now? by Sabina Zunguze

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What would you say now? A letter to my Angel who blessed us with her beautiful heart. When you are told the pain will never go away – that is no lie. It is now 6 long months since you left this earth but there is no day that I wake up without thinking that I am just living a … Read More

Did You Know? by Dianna Matzo

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My sister Amanda… It’s been just over two years now. Did you know when you shot yourself that you would take the whole family with you in one way or another? Confidence in our perception of reality, hope for the future, peace in each day, and emotional and physical health, have all been stolen from your siblings. The old is … Read More

The Blame Game by Brook Sanders

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It is human nature to be curious. “Why?” is the most commonly asked question among any age group. When someone dies by suicide, people automatically want to know why. There has to be a reason. Who did what to them? Someone had to have pissed them off. Thus starts the blame game. It’s the spouse’s fault, it’s the mother’s fault, … Read More

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