5 Things Every Survivor Should Know by Brandy Lidbeck

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As both a therapist and a two-time suicide loss survivor, there are a variety of topics that I hear on a daily basis from fellow survivors. My heart breaks for the amount of pain and torment a suicide brings to those still living. In response to this, I decided to write a book to address each of the issues in order to speak truth and give hope to other survivors. The book is written as both a therapist and a survivor and includes clinical information as well as my own personal experience. Hundreds of fellow survivors also contributed to the book by offering advice, tips, and encouragement. The book is called The Gift of Second: Healing from the Impact of Suicide and it will be available in October. (You can subscribe to this website to be kept up-to-date on the exact date the book will be released).


Below is a list of 5 things every survivor should know. Each one contains a small excerpt from the book.


1) It was not your fault. “I think we sometimes hold on to the guilt as our last sort of connection to our loved one. We often have a false belief that if we stop feeling guilty for not preventing the suicide, then we, by default, consent to it. It is simply not true. In one of the most beautiful pieces I have read on the subject of loss to suicide, LaRita Archibald writes in “Reinforcement in the Aftermath of Suicide”:

“To assume responsibility for this death, or to place responsibility upon another, robs the one who died of their personhood and invalidates the enormity of their pain and their desperate need for relief.”

We cannot accept responsibility or assume guilt for our loved one’s decision to end their life.”


2) Their suicide says nothing about you or your value. Often times survivors feel they have no worth or value if their loved ones could leave them permanently and sever the relationship. “Our loved ones were sick. They were dealing with mental illness, they felt hopeless, and they believed their lives had no value. They were in an incredibly dark place which we could not penetrate. Professionals could not save them, medicine did not cure them, and love from others couldn’t touch them. Their choice to die was their last solution to end the unimaginable physical and emotional pain they experienced every minute of every day. They were not intentionally trying to bring us pain but rather desperately trying to end their own. We will not condone suicide, but neither can we continue to take responsibility for it or allow it determine our own value.”

3) You are not alone! “Far too often we go through life alone, refusing to mention the suicide for fear of how others might react and what they may think, or fear of the emotions we may, ourselves, produce. It’s a shame that any of us would ever suffer in silence.” There are millions of fellow survivors worldwide and support groups are available almost everywhere both in-person and online. You are not alone. We understand the pain.



4) You don’t have to live with PTSD and the constant reminders of finding your loved one dead.

Finding our loved ones after they killed themselves can be scary, devastating, graphic, and traumatizing! “The trauma of a suicide does not end the day we bury our loved ones. Like the water in a ripple effect, after a stone has been tossed in, we continually feel and experience the consequences of that stone in our lives. To deny the impact is to deny ourselves. Recognize there is no shame in needing help. Often, the survivor becomes angry or sad their loved one did not seek help from family or professionals, but when it is time for us to seek help, we dismiss the need for assistance and suffer alone. A licensed psychologist or therapist, trained in trauma work and with a great understanding of PTSD, can dramatically improve a client’s life by working through the trauma with them.”


5) Self-Care is a Must! “If we are not consciously taking care of ourselves, something or someone will fill that void for us. This is a dangerous place to be. In his book, What to Do When the Police Leave: A Guide to the First Days of Traumatic Loss, Bill Jenkins writes, “It is very easy to see the allure of alcohol to dull the pain and the temptation to punish myself for something that is not my fault. But the sobering truth is that if I step onto the path of self-destruction, I know I will never come back. ” Taking care of ourselves is a must.




8 Responses

  1. Dianna

    This is a great “first look” into your book! I especially like that you included self care in the list. I had to make myself do even basic things, like shower daily, for a while. It felt like so much work at the time because I was emptied by grief. Having a therapist for mental health care was so important too. And the spiritual care from my church. Thank you for including this in your top 5.

  2. Robin Lee

    I can’t wait to buy and share this book.

  3. Wendy Faust

    This is really great start to a book that I wish I would of had when my son died by Suicide , the support from friends, family , coworkers was so huge that I don’t know if I would of survived if I didn’t have them , also book lots of books I have read and looked for , I’m so excited to read the rest of this book !
    One more thing I wished for in the very darkest time is to be able to go to a retreat for survivors a beautiful place that we can go and stay and get help from professional counselors ( maybe it’s was just a dream)
    I don’t think such a place exist.
    Help for teenagers that have lost a siblings we often get lost in our own
    Grief that we forget the other children in the family, my youngest now on medication for severe axiety , and warning signs? I know they were there but how to get these young adults to get help or take medication to feel better when they are 22 years old? Helpless is how you feel for sure !
    Thank you

  4. Rebecca Huff

    Thank you! 4 out of the 5 I could relate to. I look forward to the book. It’s been 15 months and just coming to terms with not feeling guilty etc. This has left me in tears, tears of relief that I am not alone. And their are so many that can relate. Also well written. I just started to journal my feelings. It is helping me. Again thank you for sharing! ❤

    • brandylidbeck

      Thank you for sharing. Yes, we are not alone! It is so important for survivors to recognize that over and over again, even when we feel so alone!

  5. Joann

    I really want to thank you for this website, and look forward to the release of your new book! Survivors want and need these kinds of materials that are positive motivators towards our journey of grief.
    Thanks again

    • brandylidbeck

      Thank you, Joann. I am so glad you found The Gift of Second. The book will be out in October. I hope it will help all survivors as we navigate life after a suicide.

  6. SC

    Thank you for this – I look forward to buying and reading your book when it comes out and I hope that it helps me to heal. I am so incredibly sorry for your losses, as well.